god i’m fucking crying hysterically right now i guess since i know my roommate’s going to be gone for the weekend i jsut let myself breakdown god i feel so fucking pathetic i dont want to be here im so lonely i misseveryone i miss josh so much i just want to be with him when i was at home at least my family was there to keep me company even though they could be frustrating an here i’m just soso lonely an di honestly dont knowhow to ttalk to people i know its sounds dumb to self diagnose yourself or whatever but i’ve been readingmore in depth about social anxiety anf i can relate to so much of it shit i cant do this i just want to go home i just want to see josh i dont ilke it here i know its only been two weeks but i dont eevn want to try to make friends for some reason the thought of it has no appeal i just dont want to do it shit this is so fucking pathetic im so pathetic aahh i dont even know what ot do with myself how pathetic would it be if i wen t home after this term i feel like i would have wasted so much money and i’ll be a disapointment and i dont know i jsut dont want to be here i’ve never felt so lonely